Fall Fantasy

So, after an interesting start to the school year with about a million things going on in my life, things have finally begun to settle down and feel right again. This semester has proved that it is going to be harder than I expected. My classes are not as easy as I thought...and man are they time consuming. Social life has gone out the window...though I suppose with two jobs, 5 classes, homework, friends and a boyfriend...there's not much time to do much else...including sleep. Yes, I'm aware that it is 11:26 at the current moment and I am still awake for some odd reason despite how much I know I need to sleep! But hey thats the stress of a college kid right? RIGHT?

This semester has been a learning experience for me thus far. I've learned a lot about  myself that I didn't know. For one, I'm a lot stronger than I thought I was. I can handle stress much better than I thought (well up until a certain point). I also learned that I have a breaking point. I found that breaking point this semester for the first time. I hit that breaking point and hit rock bottom in a lot of things: school, work, life, friends, self-confidence. However, after I hit this breaking point, things turned around for the better. I realized that I cannot control what happens in my life and that all things happen for a reason. One of my friends put up on a quote on twitter that absolutely fits perfectly with how I am trying to view things now. He said "How can I have a bad day when I know that God works ALL things together for the good of those who love Him. Romans 8:28" When I saw this, it struck deep down! I was like wow. That  is absolutely true. And very encouraging and heartwarming at the same time. I'm not in control of my life. I don't have to make things work the right way for me. I put my trust and faith in God and he works sovereignly in my life as I am faithful to Him. 

Ok, so the part I really wanted to get to...this past Tuesday, October 26, was mine and my wonderful boyfriend Matthew's nine month anniversary. It's funny, we always get confused because we started to date in January so the month that we're in makes how long we've been dating one month less than that month (so like, since its the 10th month of the year, we've been dating for 9). But thats beside the point. The point is, I have never felt like this about someone in my entire life. I guess you could call it "head over heels, crazy about this guy!" He's wonderful! Of course, we've had our rough patches, but what couple doesn't? They make you stronger and make you appreciate what you have together. I love getting the "good morning beautiful" text messages and the random messages like the one that just went off on my phone that say "I just love you!" They make me smile and tend to make my day. Now, thats enough mushy gushiness for one blog post, so I'll put up some pictures to take your mind off of all that...

Um so...I think I was going to choke the smugness right out of his face on this one! Cute right?

I love black and white pictures! 

Why do we have a random sheet you ask? 

As a backdrop for a movie we played outside the night before...plus it makes a nice background for pictures! :)

I decided to take Matthew to Norris Dam...for some fun time and some fun pictures!

I wanna hold your hand... :)

At the Grist Mill at Norris...this is one of my favorite pictures! 

Heading back to the car after exploring around some....a very fun day of just being us together!

The last thing that is on my mind for this post is....you guessed it...SCHOOL. It's coming to my attention that I am very quickly heading to the point where I need to think about jobs, internships, finding a way to support myself after I graduate from college and am no longer under "mommy and daddy's care." Kind of scary to think about at first...but also ridiculously exciting! I'm finally taking classes that I like (well the HR and Marketing ones at least) and feel like I am heading in a direction that I want to do. Recruiting and Sales is what I am thinking. I have a couple companies in mind to look into internships for this upcoming summer...which I am quite excited about to tell you the truth. 

I feel like my life is finally settling down and beginning to work itself out. It's kind of refreshing after the start to the year, after the past years of college and wondering "What in the world am  I gonna do when I graduate?" I finally feel like life is moving towards figuring out what is going to happen. My life story is being written and I love the way its shaping up.